Sunday, August 21, 2016

CHANGES

Well, a new year is almost here. I am very apprehensive about the future. We have a whole new administration. Everyone, Deb, Sam, Murph and Kate all moved on to greener pastures. So there will be new bosses everywhere, Principal, VP, Dean of Students and Sp-Ed chair. That's a whole lot of new. Not to mention they needed to fill 6 special ed teachers, two maternity leaves and a paternity leave. The place wont look the same at all.

So had a meeting with the new boss. Lets just say not feeling very good about it. She isn't sure about the backpack program...wants us n the classrooms (we always did it on own time)....ok but this has come from the Superintendent....well we'll have to think about that..... How do you feel about Project Support.... can't do the emotional or physical aspects of the job anymore... My feelings are she sat there pretending to listen but has already made her mind up so nothing I said made a difference. Really, you come to a very poor district where almost half of our kids are free or reduced lunch and you don't know if you want to help feed them over the weekend, not a good sign at all. My feeling...I'm screwed....

Steve has left for school, two years in Ithaca. Rachel will stay here. She would have to be re-licensed to work in New York. They are getting closer to picking a date for the wedding....2018, because of Steve's financial aid can't be sooner. They have decided that it will be small, 50 people or so. Rachel has always wanted a fall wedding but that might have to be changed too. Steve will have no insurance come August '18 so they have been discussing a spring wedding...that to we will have to wait and see.

UPDATE

 My new boss has done as I predicted...I am back in Project Support....so much for caring for her staff and students....

Friday, April 15, 2016

Detention

Is there anything worse than serving detention on the Friday before vacation!

Well yes there is, being the detention supervisor on the Friday before vacation!

Today I started with two boys, both well known to staff. They are a handful but not really bad. Mostly they are the flunkies for another student, RS, that thinks he doesn't have to follow the rules. They asked the usual, what time is this over, can I call my mother....

Everyone gets the same speech.....

     If you sit quiet, do as your asked, no talking,are no problem, you will be out early, fool around, make trouble or don't listen you'll be here until 3:30, if I have to to throw you out, at anytime this detention wont count.

For the first ten minutes the two boys are quiet then here come RS with Sam. He will be joining us today for detention...IR starts fooling around with his pencil, TM starts tapping....so I look up and RS is just smiling...I walked to IS an say very quietly..., if I were you I would move to the other side of the table so I wouldn't be tempted to fool around with RS...he looks at me and starts to say something but waits when I say, I will toss you right out of here....I DONT PLAY GAMES...he moved...TM was watching, I told him the same thing, he turns around....RS starts coughing, can I get a drink, no....I'm coughing I need a drink, no....I need to call my mother, no....she needs to know what time to get me, no.... I say, you can't leave, can't call, can't do anything until you are released from detention. If you continue you will be here way after your buddies....now he's dancing to music in his head...but has no audience,.... R turn around, knock it off, or I will toss you and this detention wont count.....

Three o'clock comes....IR and TM you guys can go....RS looks at me, turns around saying nothing so I let him go at 3:10.





















Monday, January 25, 2016

Ruth

My oldest sister, Ruth, is having some health issues. She has been battling infections of one form or another for the past two months. In and out of hospitals and rehab facilities. Just when things start to look up, wham, another set back. This last one was very concerning. She was doing very well, off the antibiotics, doing a bit of pt and then.....confusion, hallucinations, wont eat, swearing (not my sister). That was bad enough, however, her daughter couldn't get anyone to acknowledge that there was a problem, never mind how we can fix it.

She tried calling the doctor at the rehab facility....Thursday night....no phone call, Friday,... no phone call, Saturday...call the Admin Office....no phone call....talks to a doctor who thinks she's doing ok...really, she's having conversations with my father whose been dead for 19 years, check her for a UTI...She tells this guy "I will be there tomorrow morning, what time are you going to be there?"...She meets him at 9, his hands in his pockets, telling her Ruth is doing well...9am asks for one of those machines to help measure lung function, the things you blow into to move the ball....I got there at 10, no plastic thing...talk to the nurse, Ruth wont eat asks for oxygen...they need a doctors order???....11 no oxygen yet, have a call in to respiratory...11:30...MY MOTHER IS IN DISTRESS SHE NEEDS OXYGEN!!!...12:00, in walks Joe, the repository supervisor, Takes Ruth's oxygen level, 86...listens to her rattled breathing, orders a chest x ray and starts the flow of oxygen, brings in the plastic puffer thing....then asks us questions....the look of horror/concern on that mans face was beyond what anyone could imagine....he started asking for names, if you don't have names he wants times.....FINALLY someone will listen...

A little to late....as her healthcare proxy, her daughter insisted on bringing her back to the hospital she started at, she is there right now, waiting in the er for a room.

Now we can worry about her, not the care or the lack of care she will be receiving.

 Heaven help those elderly who can't advocate for themselves, or don't have someone to advocate for them.







Thursday, December 17, 2015

Gee's Day

Tomorrow morning 6am Gee died in 2010.

The only thing I can say is I miss him as much today as I did then.


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Saturday, November 28, 2015

Not So Black Friday

I love having my grandchildren come to visit. Yesterday was no exception. Black Friday...Clayton had asked weeks ago, if I was going shopping on the Friday after Thanksgiving....good grief no....want to watch the boys???

Bright and early, 7:45 here comes two little guys in PJ's, robes and slippers...they didn't want to get dressed Clayton tells me....Jack has brought a movie and Dom is dragging his "baby" and a spare.

Auntie Rachel had to work and Uncle Steve was heading off to breakfast with his mother. Where do we start.....

First lets watch Elf on a Shelf...cute movie, the first 3 times....I'm hungry....lets play Candyland....lets play Connect 4, the right way....I'm hungry....watch Mickey Mouse....play with the light saber, got any batteries, sorry no.... when is Auntie Rachel coming home...not until 5...I'm hungry.....oh where's Uncle Steve, he went to play disk golf...I know how to play that...I'm hungry....is Dominic going to take a nap....hope so....I've been kinda good in school...I'm hungry.....what do you want for lunch....ABC's.....ok, got that....Guess what Grandma...what?....I got wet at Aunt BJ's yesterday...did you fall in a puddle...no, I fell in her pool..WHAT....

Jack ran across BJ's pool on the cover. I had already left to head to Ruth's...my heart sank....Mama and Daddy weren't mad, just scared...Aunt Darlene too.....oh my I'm so glad your alright...yeah...I'm hungry....

Holy crap I almost got sick to my stomach...I don't even know if he knew that under that green thing was a pool until he ran on it...thank goodness it was one of the ones that stretch across tight and have anchors in the cement....how quickly things could have changed.......

Friday, September 18, 2015

81 TODAY

Today would have been Gee's 81'st birthday....still miss him like it was yesterday...

No one knows the pain I'm dealing with! I miss you so so much. Can't wait til we meet again. Doing the best I can on this earth for our daughters! I love uYou so much. Xoxo Denise:











       I love you Gee...

Tuesday, August 4, 2015

The Rising of a Balloon

A few weeks ago I went to the Hospice House Rachel worked at all year. Beautiful place, lovely garden, very nice people. All telling me just how wonderful my darling girl was. How they had missed her since she left them.

It was their remembrance day. The day they had past families come and remember those that were lost. I never went to the one held at the hospice that helped me care for Gee....no...way too painful. I went to this one to support Rachel while she saw families she had tried to give some comfort to during a most trying of times.

If I ever had a doubt that Rachel has chosen her life's path well, this visit would have eased my mind. So many families came to her, just to hug her and say thank you....

"my husband loved you"
"he always ate your waffles"
"my mother always talked of you"

and so many more

After reading the names, we gathered in a circle, released balloons and I got  very sad....it was almost as if we finally said goodbye...as if all this time I had held back that final act of letting go....watching that balloon rise up, taking my prayers and wishes along with it... really accepting Gee is gone and I am here without him, waiting, as I had done so many times before, until we are together again....




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