I find that as I get older I seek the quiet of my own company. I miss seeing my kids and my grandchildren but the day to day meetings of others I have little use for. I have always been introverted but things have become even more internalized. I enjoy walking the dog in the early morning hearing the loons on the lake, seeing the pair of cardinals fly past. However, I don't have the great desire to engage in the niceties of society...Finn being my constant companion is more than I need.
I have been thinking of Gee very much lately. We are coming up on his tenth anniversary. I still can't get over that he's gone...I have so much I need to tell him....I need his strength, his undying optimism.
Life sure has a way of giving you everything you never thought you needed or even wanted but once you get it you sure can't imagine ever living without it.... and then you have to. This sure isn't where I ever thought I'd be after all these years... all those dreams of youth. We were going to go to all the places Gee went to on his journey...Germany, Korea, Alaska... instead we spent those last years traveling to doctors, tests and scans...I would have continued forever just to have him with me...
Always and forever
