Sunday, December 14, 2014

December sucks..

Gee's anniversary is coming up. Kate will soon be out until February vacation, baby's due on the 15th, and I am really feeling my age. Not physically, but mentally and emotionally. I hate the thought of taking over for Kate when she is home with the baby. I reassure her all the time we will be fine. I'm really not so sure. My patience, with the girls especially is wearing very thin. They are so very tiring, so demanding of attention. The boys are different. They tend to just not want to go to class or to do what the teacher asks...easy fix most of the time....but the drama is more than I can take.

We had our first  "snow" day today. First it was a delay, icy roads, then the call came to cancel the day. It's one lousy day. Started great, did laundry, dusted the dining room, just moving along fine. Then I sat to have a cup of coffee. It was like a weight just landed on my shoulder, I was done. When will these episodes end?

I am always melancholy this time of year. Winter is here, Christmas is coming, and I'm missing Gee as much as ever. It's cold and rainy outside, so I sit listening to old songs, thinking of Gee. Just feeling sorry for myself.

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