Thursday, February 3, 2011

Our Anniversary

February 18th, our wedding anniversary.....28 years married, 35 years together or would have been...and I would jump at the chance to do it all again. It passed by so quickly, hardly more than a blink of an eye. Some would think we don't have much to show for it. An old house that needs work from top to bottom and a few bucks in the bank. I drive a new to me car, work for peanuts in the school system, hope the snow blower lasts the winter, not to mention the oil....

I also have two wonderful children and 34 years of wonderful memories. He was a simple man with simple pleasures. His family, dominoes, the blues, and pinochle. For years his favorite thing was going to BJ's to play cards, have a few drinks and some good food, what more could a simple man ask for. Anyone who knew him heard that laugh the memory of which brings tears to my eyes, so loud, so contagious, and so genuine. We once had someone move his car at the drive in because he was so loud at a Mel Brooks movie....beans anyone....

He's been gone now 2 months, I am coping. Most days aren't to bad I am busy at work, not much time to think about myself. The nights are a challenge. Laureen and David try to make sure I eat regular by inviting me to dinner a couple times a week. I haven't gotten used to the quiet. I have the radio or the television on even when I read, which I haven't done much of lately...bifocals leave much to be desired, might get just some reading glasses...have to talk to Joel about that....or on the computer. I have touched base so to speak with an old friend through blogging that was quite pleasant, more memories to contemplate.

Rachel doesn't come home as much now, busy with school and friends, as it should be. She is going to make a difference in the world, even if it is only in her little corner of it. A kinder soul I have never met. Clayton is busy with his own family. He has grown into a fine young man and a great dad, so much like his father. Quick to laugh and very laid back. He and Katie are excellent parents, Jaxon is the center of their world, they are enjoying every minute they have with him.

After my grandfather died my grandmother said to me, she was supposed to go first, she was the oldest. Well not that I thought I would go first, however, I never thought for a minute Gee would leave me this soon. He was older but also the healthiest of anyone I knew, still calling basketball at 72. Until he was diagnosed with cancer the second time, I thought surly he would live at least as long as his father, 93, well we all know that didn't happen.

Where do I go from here? That's any ones guess.


  1. I think about Gee every day . . . his humor; his natural insight; his kindness; his openness; his love of living; his love of family; his huge heart that he shared so unselfishly. I can only imagine your loneliness, dear sister. Just know that we all share your loss and are here, some of us pretty far away, but we are with you. Love always.

  2. Aunt Robin,
    I just happened to stumble across your blog. It saddens me to see how lost/lonely you are without Gee although I couldn't even imagine that it could be any easier for you.
    I've always felt like Uncle Gee and I shared a simple yet special bond but I am realizing now that anyone who knew Gee probably feels this same way.
    I hope your days get easier, not just because time is passing but because his memories and words of encouragement help you get through the tough times.
    I am not sure what saddens me more his loss (eventhough he is not suffering anymore) or your loss...
    I'm thinking of you...
    Love, Shelley